Feminine Energy

Feminine energy is all of the nurturing traits it takes to connect to human beings in a meaningful and fulfilling way. It’s compassionate, kind, empathetic, patient and emotional.

I was always this tough woman afraid to let her guard up. The thought always occurred that the next would always treat me like the last. I asked God to send me a great man and this and that but never did I pray and ask of him to prepare me so once he sent me what I asked I couldn’t manage it.

I never was put in a situation where I had to cook and be a woman to a man. In my household I play mom and dad so my masculine and feminine tendencies both align and go head to head.

I don’t think I realized how serious it was until I was put in a situation to make me reevaluate some things. Life knocked the wind out of me while I was left grasping for air. God humbled me real quick and eventually I realized I wasn’t as tough as I thought.

“A mistake that makes us humble is better than an achievement that makes us arrogant.” — Unknown

A woman will try to play hard but deep down she’s vulnerable and not as strong. It’s her mind that projects her to play this tough role when deep down all she desires is someone to take the weight off her shoulders.

Tonight was a night for new beginnings for me. I realized it’s okay to be the woman God intended me to be. That guard that’s been weighing on me it’s okay to ease it up a bit. It’s okay to have a little affection towards someone.

In my head I’m thinking “Girl allow someone in and don’t be as hard on yourself…”

I’ve had a chance to redo things as if what I currently faced didn’t prepare me. Here I am cooking and washing being this woman I should’ve allowed myself to be to someone. This may just be the fresh start I needed being that I’ve been given a second chance.

I admit it feels awkward but I’m allowing myself to flourish more. I had a hard time over the years and allowed the past to hinder me but now I’m more submissive. I’m able to now understand that I must be open and willing to accept the change, if not the same results will occur.

To any single woman who hasn’t dated in years I encourage you to give love a try. Don’t hold one accountable for what happened in your past. If he’s worth it, give it a chance! Don’t cause confusion instead be a man’s peace! Value him, appreciate him, and respect him.

What I once thrived in I have now released. I’m happy and proud of me. I love this new era! I never thought this change would take place but most importantly I thank God for allowing the challenges I’ve faced to mold me into who I am created to be.

“One is not born, but rather becomes, a woman.”
– Simone de Beauvoir

By Courtney Dillard

A woman fulfilling her purpose.

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